It's getting colder...

I've been pretty busy with school and life in general. I've written more in my LiveJournal [comment with your email, and I can add you].

I'm in class right now, learning about pharmaceutical laws. Kinda boring sounding, but interesting.

Time to pay attention.

Uncomfortable

I feel weird being at school.

I don't exactly like the feeling.

Today I have pharmacy class until 9:40 again. I think we're doing calculations. Great, because I didn't remember to bring my calculator.

I keep gazing off into nothing. I am catching myself.

I'm probably going to cut my hair when I get home.

My thoat burns...

This is a good thing. I love spinach salads with red peppers. Yum!

Today is my first day of classes. They're night classes though, and they don't start until 5:30pm.

I'm slightly nervous. Who will I be in class with? What will my teacher be like? Can I handle the courses? Will the syllabus scare me shitless?

I guess I will find out starting at 5:30.

Well, as you may have deduced, I am back in Lynchburg. Vacation was amazingly fun. The waves were awesome. No rain all week [until the day we left, and even then, the rain didn't start until we got to Virginia]. I really miss it though. I know Hayley does too.

I hung out with Belinda yesterday and watched Madea Goes to Jail [the play version]. Hilarious. I might be hanging out with Belinda and Darryl tomorrow or Wednesday. Swim party!

I'm outside, getting back into old routines. Smoking cigarettes incessantly. Talking to strangers. I did run into Jesse though, which was AWESOME. He said he's dropping out though and going back packing in Berlin [and Europe, I am guessing]. I will miss him. In fact, I missed him this summer.

My myoclonic jerks have been giving me a difficult time lately. Down at the beach in particular, which I attribute that to my increased activity. I don't know if I've talked about myoclonic jerks before. It's kinda like hypnic jerks. Like when you're falling alseep, but then you jerk awake. Only myoclonic jerks happen anytime. I normally get appendage seizing, like my arms. If I'm laying down or sitting, I will get full body seizes. Weird, I know. Dr. Thomson says it's my medicine. I guess that's right.

I'm in the market for a new therapist. Anyone know a good therapist either in Lynchburg or Charlottesville, VA? Particularly one with experiences with eating disorders and bipolar disorder. I'm going to try and get a reference next time I see my current therapist. I did get the balls to call the nutritionist a couple weeks ago, but I still have yet to receive a call back. Very frustrating.

The college is full of young people now. I feel old. Very old. I'm only 22. What's up with this?

I spent some of my leftover vacation money on a new pair of TOMS. Excessive, perhaps? I just really love my TOMS.

I'm really starting to gather myself up again. Break ups are the worst. I feel like my heart literally aches sometimes. I know it's for the best now. I really need to spend some time on myself. By myself. Maybe it's just that I'm scared of myself. That sounds really weird, I'm sure.

I'm unimpressed by some of the people who have shown up. Rude as hell. Seriously, get over yourself. You suck.

I'm done with this, before I get even more pissed off.

Beach, cont.

Dad and I are at the coffee shop, doing some business I guess. I'm on my computer and have decided to make a blog post.

My knees hurt from walking and swimming. I'm having a good time though. Hayley is spending most of her time with her parents and some with us. I'm enjoying the attention I'm getting from my parents and grandma. I really enjoy their company. It distracts me. I forgot how much my mom makes me laugh, how logical and intelligent my father is, and how wise and fun my grandma is. I'm treating this like it will be the last chance I get to learn about them.

The bugs are out full force. I'm getting bit by mosquitoes through my tshirt. Pretty bad. They also have green heads, which are these little fly looking things that bite like crazy. It is intense.

I need some Tylenol. I've been taking it since my fibro has been acting up on this trip. It's all the activity and humidity.

We went shopping today. Mom, dad, grandma, and I. It was fun. We hung out at the general store, sipped on some cokes. I forgot how good soda tastes, but it triggers gagging sometimes. It doesn't taste so good coming up. Really, some things taste tolerable, which is why you pick certain foods to eat if you're going to binge and purge.

I realized yesterday, I didn't think of purging.

This guy just had the biggest cup of coffee I have ever seen. Wow.

There is a Hanson MOE in October in DC. So going. It's too close for me not to go.

Well, I don't have much else to talk about. I will probably post again in a couple days.

At the beach

So my family and I made it to the beach. It is nice and warm out, a bit humid though. Kinda buggy, but that's okay. Bug spray is your friend (unless you are Hayley, who is allergic to deet).

I'm at the coffee shop right now having a smoothie. I rode my bike here. This is wonderful.

The drive down here was crazy. My dad's directions were horrible. We got lost in Petersburg (figures, we always get lost there) and dad sent us to Plymouth instead of Manteo. Very frustrating. Cut about an hour out of our trip. But we made it, and that's all that matters.

My playlist? Lady Gaga, Radiohead, and Ani Difranco. Lady Gaga doesn't seem to fit, does it? Her music is so catchy and she's so weird. I love it.

Hayley is at the beach right now with her parents. I'm spending some quality time by myself while my mom cooks dinner. Turkey and ham, basically and Thanksgiving dinner. My mom is an overachiever.

I hear church bells.

I will probably go to the beach tomorrow. Today is my resting day. I am spending time to myself, because I think I've been around too many people lately. Makes me antsy.

I miss a certain someone.

Enough said. Time to browse the net to see what shit I can stir up on H-Net, lol.

Wow...

Sadly, I have to report that I have twittered over 1,000 times. This is just plain ridiculous...

I am writing this on my new net book. It is totally sweet. I love it already. I'm glad I will have this for school.

Today has been a lazy day. I walked a little with Panda the dog, who wanted to run, and I sat out in the garage with Snowy the cat reading to him. I am not taking calls today. I need a little solitude, if you count being around animals solitude.

I have been working on a navy/grey scarf. It is turning out beautifully. I should have it done in no time, definitely before the cold comes.

Primarily reading Out. I have plenty of books to read though, yet I am rereading books. Eh, I've already been through this before.

Tomorrow I go with my Dad to WV to pick up my Grandma and Hayley. I'm actually excited about it. Road trips are nice.

I'm watching the People's Court. 'Nuff said.

Tonight I will start packing for the beach, considering Hayley is coming and I probably won't have time to pack. I'm leaving Saturday. I miss crab fried rice from the thai restaurant. Yum. I also miss surfing. I can only think of one thing that could ruin it, but I won't say it here. It would be rude.

Well, I'm going to nap.

One day closer...

My cat wants food. Wet food, not dry food. She is spoiled. She keeps meowing. I know that's what she wants. I have no wet food. I have to go to the store. I can't go right now though. Car is out of order.

Mom is canning more green beans.

My hair is wet. I spent the morning in the pool and laying out in the sun. I love the sun now. I used to just take it for granted, but not anymore.

Plenty of sun coming soon. I can't wait.

I'm horribly dissatisfied with myself. These things are apparent. I am showering in the dark again. Something I haven't done in a long time.

Please, oh please.

I was going to talk about Martha Stewart, but I won't.